Hmmm... perhaps it's the emo time of the year again.

After going through so much,... studying so hard.. working for so long... What is it that keeps me going? What am i doing with my life? What's that goal which i'm aiming for?!

Why do so many things, when in the end.. it feels worthless to do so.

God seems so far away for me nowadays. Sometimes i wonder.. whether not having a God would be better than having one... because without God, there's no need for accountability. Now with God, i have someone to be accountable, and at the same time... more worries, no help. Looking at my non-christian friends, it makes me wonder, why are they still as happy without God. And me being a christian, is far worse and less happy than them. I thought my life should be better?!

Well, i cant answer all those questions now. It's getting too emo.

Having a Heart that says - Yes; while the rational mind thinks otherwise.

No answers at all - Just letting time settle wash it away with the footprints on the sand. It's good leaving memories behind on sand, because these are too painful to remember. Let the tide wash it away. But for the happy moments, lets carve it onto a piece of stone and into our hearts.

I'm not sure why am i so emo when school starts. But this semester will be different. I'm no longer searching, i'm yearning.